Buhay Talaan ni Felipe - 2

Mamaalam, tala kong may ngiti, saglit lamang, may huling habilin, sa gitna ng yong paglalakbay, sa dako mong ihihimlay dalhin ang payapa't pangakong wagas. Patawad. May lunas pa araw nananamlay mong diwa s'yang may gamay ng malay mong tilang hiram. Itong minamataa, daang tinitimbang, dala, tang kong alay. Mamaalam sa mundong kay lupit, sadya kayang nilihis sa pait. Sa gitna ng yong paghihimlay, manlako kang maghihintay. Dalhin sa paaglitis. Taglay ng tamis. Paalam. ["Alay," Aia de Leon]

lunes, enero 03, 2005


6 CBC's, 7 Paracetamols, 12 meals and 25 trips to the toilet later, I gained 5 pounds and all of it went to my mid area. Whenever I see myself naked infront of the bathroom mirror, it's like I'm looking at a pregnant walking stick. Well, I guess, this will be my motivation not to forget to visit the gym at least 3 times a week.


Meanwhile, I was thinking about an ultimate goal this year. I fell asleep thinking about it last night. I can't ellaborate it. Sabi nga, baka hindi pa matuloy. But it has something to do with my name. I just want everything to be finally legal. People who know about my background probably already know what I'm talking about.

I know it's kinda late to do this kind of action. This should have been done when I was still a kid. When I was a baby. I could have been spared from the ridicule, and the discomfort when classmates ask why I have a different family name as my parents. My parents thought the situation was alright. They always assumed that I was doing fine. But they were not there so they have no idea what was going on with me. And they're not adopted so they don't know how it is to be like me.

I'm just glad I ended up friends with the good ones of my batch.


I'm feeling better today. I woke up with a 37.1 C mild fever which was bearable. I didn't have to pop a paracetamol. And I get to take a bath! Hey, if you've been bed ridden for more than 5 days, you'll know the joy of finally getting a bath.


Christina went back to Mexico this morning. I feel bad that I wasn't well enough to take her even for just a coffee one last time. I owe her one. She'll probably make me kulit about visiting her in Mexico when she sees me online. She has no idea how I hate travelling to countries outside Asia. I dunno why, I just hate it. I love Asia. And I hate Americans and the French (everybody hates the French, anyway -- unless you're someone who loves kissing their asses) as well.


The tsunami tragedy that happened recently hit quite a number of Australian tourists. Wasn't it Australia who banned the Philippines as a tourist destination because of the supposed "terrorist activities" that were going on south of the country?? So they preferred going to Muslim countries who have more publicized terrorist activities (remember the Bali bombings? Hello??) going on?? I remember a Tita uttering "tamaan sana ng lintik (to the Australians)" when the ban came out. And they did. But seriously now, we should be thankful that our country was spared from this calamity. We still haven't recovered from the typhoon that hit Quezon.

Last Saturday, New Year's day, I was forced to attend mass even if I was ill. Anyway, I was seated most of the time. So it's alright. At may aircon na sa St. James. At the middle of the mass, there was a second 'collection.' The priest announced that it was for the victims of the tsunami that hit Asia. And I was like... HELLO??? Sarili nga natin hindi natin matulungan nung tinamaan tayo nung bagyo. Tayo pa ang tutulong sa iba. Kayabangan na yata yan. Don't get me wrong. It is good to help other countries in need when in a crisis. But we are in a crisis ourselves! Marami pang gutom at nangangailangan ng tulong sa Quezon hanggang ngayon. Ba't hindi na lang yun ang tulungan muna? Nakakatawa.