Buhay Talaan ni Felipe - 2

Mamaalam, tala kong may ngiti, saglit lamang, may huling habilin, sa gitna ng yong paglalakbay, sa dako mong ihihimlay dalhin ang payapa't pangakong wagas. Patawad. May lunas pa araw nananamlay mong diwa s'yang may gamay ng malay mong tilang hiram. Itong minamataa, daang tinitimbang, dala, tang kong alay. Mamaalam sa mundong kay lupit, sadya kayang nilihis sa pait. Sa gitna ng yong paghihimlay, manlako kang maghihintay. Dalhin sa paaglitis. Taglay ng tamis. Paalam. ["Alay," Aia de Leon]

lunes, enero 31, 2005


Went home for lunch today and THIS is what I found on my bathroom floor. The maids changed the mats.

Acqua? I don't THINK so. Dolphines? They're so... yaaaaak!

* sigh *

I'm gonna be crapping with the dolphines.
Last saturday, I was invited by J to workout with him at Fitness First Makati. He just wanted me to check out his gym. I hate Makati because I hate the people. Too sosyal for me. I was afraid that the Makati gym crowd will be that way too. After several text lines, I was convinced to go. It was my first time at the Makati gym, and my first time to visit a Fitness First branch other than Alabang. Nagamit din ang pagka-passport ng account ko.

I would compare the Makati gym to Bed. Bed is a room packed with gay men. The Makati gym is a floor flooded with bakla. The crowd wasn't sosyal. It was... BAKLA. The effem type. The yabang type. The chaka type. The cruiser type. Sa ibang salita, mga kalahi ng ever famous KUHOL, model of the 6-week slimming challenge, of FF Alabang. It was a saturday. I can just imagine the place to be packed with Chers, Kylies and Madonnas on weeknights. And I don't like their locker room. It's too cramped and boso-able. And the lockers seemed to have been tampered at one time. May mga scratches around the key hole. Hmmmmm... But I like the shower cubes. And luwag! Pwedeng pang dalawahan! Ehehe ehehe.


We hung out and had dinner at Robinson's Place Manila. I love this mall. Daming cutie na may mga fellow cutie na jowa. Ang saya-saya! Bought myself a pair of rubber shoes on sale (which I doubt I would ever get caught wearing at the gym). A pair of casual khaki denim shoes for less than a thousand pesos (Which I doubt I would ever wear with shorts)! And a box of Gonuts Donuts. Mmmm.... SSSSAAAWWWAP!!


Saw my ex, Derrick, at Van Haussen...? Van Heissen? Van Hus... Basta. THAT Rustan's operated stored. He used to work at the Festival Mall branch. And now he's at THIS branch. I saw him. He saw me. Pero wala. Deadma niya ako. In-add pa man din niya ako sa downelink. Pero sheht. Payat na siya. At ang gwapo niya. He looks older tho. Older than me even! Pero, gwapo pa rin.


Tito Ben, my Mom's friend from LA, is arriving tonight. And She's FORCING me to pick him up. Kainis. Mang-iimbita ng bisita tapos ibang tao ang aabalahin to pick him up at the airport. And I hate Tito Ben. For an American BUM, and yabang niya. I suggested the maid and the driver to pick him up since they know him anyway. Tito Ben even mentioned their names while talking with my Mom 3 days ago. She wants me to pick him up kase everytime they go to LA, he always picks them up. That's why I don't want to see my relatives in America. If I go there, I would have to stay with them. May utang na loob pa ako ngayon. And I hate that pinoy quality.

And why can't Kuya go to the airport FOR ONCE??? It has always been me picking someone up at the airport. Tapos parating Japan Airlines pa. Puro Japayuki mga kasabay. Grrrr.

Well, the arguement is over. Dad's picking him up with a driver and my Mom's making me feel guilty about it.

Alright, I'm EVIL. So shoot me.

viernes, enero 28, 2005

Just a glimpse...

... of how my worktable looks like when preparing for our employees' payroll.

I do it twice a month.

It's boring.

It's risky.

It gives me headaches.

Nakakalito magbilang.

At... mabigat siyang dalhin pagkatapos, ha.
What does Whammy mean?


jueves, enero 27, 2005


You Are a Chihuahua Puppy

Small, high strung, and loyal.
You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you!


You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

Oh my gulay! SPANK me!

Naughty Girl by Beyonce

"Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body"

2004 was your year! You felt sexy as hell - and it showed.

Yyyyyyep...! That's ME

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 55% of the Population

If you scored...

80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life.

60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.

20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good.

0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

Nothing unusual happened today. Wasn't inspired to write about anything. Didn't have any good shots from my camera. And wasn't exactly in the mood to be creative. It was a nuu-nee-nuu-nee-nuu day. I didn't do a lot but for some reason I was so tired at the end of doing everything.

I was bored.


I fell asleep on my bean bag while listening to the CD of the San Miguel Master Chorale. And in my slumber, I had a wierd dream. Probably one of the wierdest dreams I can remember. In my dream, I was at a deserted beach with my friends (and so-called friends). We were not doing anything. My friends were standing on this old neglected brick wall facing the sea and I was somewhere far behind them. Very much like guarding them and the sea. Everything and everyone was still except for the sea. What's wierder was everything was in a shade of BLUE. Like an alternative of an old black and white movie. And my friends were all NAKED. And the freaky part is that they all have something in common. At one time (or maybe more), I made out with each of them.

And YOU would know if you're in THIS dream.

*wink, wink*

... And then I woke up.

Betchabygollywow. Sumakit ang puson ko!

Okay, okay. Pakibaba ng kilay, please. I did have sex with some of my friends. But that was BEFORE they became my friends. We dated, we had fun, but became good pals in the end. Anong magagawa ko eh FRIENDLY ako.

"Mabuhay! I am Miss Congeniality Jessica Balasubas from Muntinlupa SITEH! I thank you."


About 2 houses away, someone was blasting his 2nd-hand made-in-China radio loud enough to call the attention of a passing guard. It was coming from the site of the new house (I would rather call it a 3-level mansion) being built at the end of our street. The song being played (before it was put to stop by our village guard the hero) was one of my favorite songs in high school (pero mas matanda pa yung kanta kaysa sa akin o sa school ko). It was a sentimental Carpenters song.

This is my song of the day.


Lyrics: Felice Mancini / Music: Henry Mancini

Sometimes, not often enough
We reflect upon the good things
And those thoughts always center
Around those we love

And I think about those people
Who mean so much to me
And for so many years have made me
So very happy

And I count the times I have forgotten to say
Thank you, and just how much I love them


Hindi sapat ang tingnan ka.
Hindi sapat ang makausap ka.
Hindi sapat ang mayakap ka.
Hindi sapat ang makapiling ka.

Upang matugunan ang pangangailangan.
Upang matugunan ang pangungulila.
Upang matugunan ang inaasam-asam.
Upang matugunan ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo.

miércoles, enero 26, 2005

Masarap kami kumain

My cousin Jay-R came over for a visit. Wow. Nagiging close na yata kami dahil lang sa kotche. He was just in time for dinner. Which made me wonder: binibisita ba talaga ako nito o chumechempo lang sa hapunan namin? Kilala ang bahay namin sa mga kamag-anak ng tatay ko sa pagkakaroon ng kumpletong ulam tuwing tanghali at hapunan: meron parating isda, karne, gulay (is-kar-gu kung tawagin sa Batibot!) at prutas. This is how my mom and her siblings have had their meals while growing up in Sta. Rosa even if they were poor, and this is also how my family have always had our meals as far as I can remember. And these are always good meals. I used to think that all my friends' families prepare their meals the same way. Until one day, in fifth grade, kumain ako ng tanghalian sa bahay ng isang kaibigan pagkatapos mag biking. Doon sa dinner table nakahain na ang pritong tilapia at isang gabundok na kanin. Nakaupo lang ako doon naghihintay pa kung may darating pang ulam kase ang daming kanin! Kumakain na yung kaibigan ko nang tanungin ako kung bakit nakatunganga pa ako. Nakaramdam naman ako na yun lang ang ulam nila kaya hindi na ako umimik at nagumpisang kumain na lang. Pagkauwi ko, tinanong agad ako ng nanay ko kung anong kinain kong pananghalian. At ayun, nakwento ko sa kanya.

"Oo mommy! Yung malaking bahay doon sa kanto, yung sabi mong mansyon, pritong tilapia lang ulam nila."

"Eh di sana dito mo na lang dinala yung kaibigan mo para dito kayo nananghalian."

"Mas malapit bahay niya sa park, eh."

"Nakita mo na! Pasalamat ka taga Sta. Rosa ang nanay mo. Masarap tayo kumain!"

Hmmm. Masarap kumain. Yun ang unang pagkakataon kong marinig na gamitin ang masarap kumain sa ganun klaseng pangungusap. Alam ko yung nangangahulugang maganang kumain ang isang tao. Tulad ng "masarap kumain ang anak ni Mrs. Cruz." Pero sa pangungusap ng nanay ko, kakaiba ang kahulugan niya. Narinig ko nanaman ang salitang yan sa bibig ng isang nakababatang kaibigan ng nanay ko.

"Naku, sa bahay ni Ate Myrna masarap sila kumain. Kaya gustung-gusto kong dumalaw sa kanila. Parang parating may handa."

Masarap ang ulam?
Masarap ang kanin?
Masarap kami panooring kumain?
Mukha kaming masarap kainin??

Naintindihan ko na ang lahat sa isang handaan ng Family Reunion sa bahay ng Tita Sylvia ko sa Pasay nang sabihin niya sa isang bisita nang buong pagmamalaki, "kaming lahat sa pamilyang B****n, masarap talagang kumain lalong-lalo na kapag may okasyon."

Maraming pagkain, may mapagpipiliang putahe, masarap ang timpla ng ulam, kumpleto sa rekado, kasaganahan... yun lang ang ibig sabihin ng masarap ang pamilya naming kumain. Kung lumaking promding Tagalog ka, masasakyan mo 'to.


Hindi masyado uso sa Sta. Rosa ang mga kakanin. Karaniwan angkat pa mula sa kalapit na mga bayan. Pero sa pamilya namin, mas nilalamutak ang ulam. Kwento ng nanay at mga Tita ko, noong dalaga pa sila, kalde-kaldero sila kung mag luto ng iba't ibang ulam. Lalo na kung may pera silang pambili ng pagkain (keep in mind that a few pesos back is already a lot). Lahat marami. Lahat masarap. Lahat magrasa. At Oo, lahat masama sa puso... pero masarap! Mas sagana kapag may totoong handaan. Kaya mula balat ng lechon, chicharon, dinuguan, hangang sa kare-kare, nilamutak yang lahat ng nanay ko. Kaya ayan ngayon, may alta presyon. But every now and then, she would get a piece of lechon, or another of kaldereta. I'm amazed that she allows herself to eat dinuguan whenever we have lunch at Bacolod Chicken House in BF.

"Paminsan-minsan lang naman, eh," she would reason out.

Oo nga naman. Paminsan-minsan lang naman. She has been on a diet of toasted bread, salad, fish and white meat for a long time now.

I'm a psycho happy bunny

cute but psycho
you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse

which happy bunny are you?
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Iba na ang may pinagsamahan

Kaibigan mo ang mga kaibigan mo dahil sa kayo ay may pinagsamahan. Sa mga usapang ganito, hindi na importante kung ano nga ba itong "pinagsamahan" ninyo. Hindi mo maaaring gawing katumbas ng salitang ito sa "dahil kasama ko siya sa camping," o "siya ang kaklase ko nung grade 4 ako." Walang pagpapaliwanag ang maghihintay sa "may pinagsamahan."

Kapag tatanungin ako kung ano ang pinagsamahan ko sa mga kaibigan ko, wala ako agad na maisasagot. At malamang sa hindi, wala talaga akong maisasagot. Dahil mas malalim pa sa pagpapaliwanag na gamit ang salita ang makakapagbigay kahulugan sa salitang ito. Hindi mahalaga ang haba ng panahon na kakilala ko sila. Hindi rin mahalaga kung gaano kadalas ko sila makasama. Kung ano man ang pinagsamahan ko sa isang kaibigan ay kami na ang nagkakaintindihan doon. Kami na ang makakaramdam doon.

North American International Show 2005

Oh my GAWD. I wish I was here to personally see all these cars. Eye candy cars, INDEED. Now, I don't know much about cars. Set-ups, engines, levels... whatever. I just love looking at fancy cars. I see them as individual works of art. Like how the different external and internal parts were designed and the technology/ies involved in improving a basic car.

This is my favorite auto in the show. It's the most normal looking car among the displays. And this one. Ok na rin ito. It has an ugly color tho. But look... It's a Jag!
There's action in Jagard's blog entry "Scavenger." Daming comments! Bring in the pop corn. I'm ready for some ENTERTAINMENT!


I'm just lucky I haven't lost anything in the gym yet. Bihira naman ako pumunta sa gym eh! DUH!! Kekekekekeke. At mukha akong poor kaya hindi nila ako pagdidiskartehan. Kekekekekeke.

Ang speaking of "mukhang poor," daming puta looking na pasosyal na babae na nakaka-asar sa gym ha. Sorry. I just had to rant about this. Matagal na akong hindi pumupunta sa gym but I'm so ultra mega sure the puta girls are still there. Ang arte-arte, ang lakas ng boses manlait ng mga tao, sila naman mga mukhang kabuteng bukid. At kung tumingin pa... kapaaaaaaaaaaal. Mula ulo hangang paa ang gapang ng mga mata. And I'm like... "Hello?? What was THAT for?" At least I'm using my own money to pay for my gym membership, not my parents'. At least I'm using my own money to pay for my DSL connection, not my parents'. At least I'm using my own money to pay for Personal Training, not my parents'. At least I bought my car using my own money, not my parents'. At least I'm using my own money to pay for my credit card bills, not my parents'. At least I use my own money for my medical bills, not my parents'. At chuva... chu... CHU!! Ngayon, magkano ba ang halaga ninyo, mga putang ina kayo? Paporma-porma kayo wala naman kayo sariling pera!


Anyway, back to my topic, Superspy lost his running shoes at the gym months ago. I'm so sure that it was stolen because it was never reported to the Front Desk (is that what you call it?). Jagard lost his mobile phone at the Makati branch of FF in a VERY disturbing manner. The phone got stolen while it was INSIDE his locker. And apparently, he's not the only one who fell victim to the disappearing-mobile-phone-while-inside-the-locker magic act at that branch. Madami pang iba. His locker was not forced open. As if it was opened with a key. Now, who could have had an entra key to all those lockers?

Hmmmm. Kamot kokote, kain kamote.


Nakakatamad bumalik sa gym. BUTI na lang kahit na isang toneladang taba, langis at twister fries ang nilamutak ko mula nang pumasok ang 2005, hindi pa akong lumolobong balyena. Which reminds me. Parang gusto ko nanaman kumain. Kaya bibisitahin ko muna ang kusina namin.

martes, enero 25, 2005

I'm a trackball user. I have learned to be more comfortable with it than with the mouse. And since you don't use the unit by moving it on a surface, it uses minimal space on your table. Most people can't seem to get use to controlling the windows pointer by moving the ball with his fingers. Isa nanamang rason kung bakit ako abnormal.

I have been using my trackball for about 4 years now. And it's beginning to go out of control. I clean it about once a week but it seems that it has served it's purpose. I needed a new trackball.

Kugel suggested that I switch back to using a mouse. But after sending him a picture of my messed up computer table, he agreed with me that I should just stick to trackballs.

I'm so lazy to clean up my room!

Ang hirap palang maghanap ng trackball sa panahong ito (parang napaka tanda ko na). Most of the trackballs I see in stores now, kung meron man, ay yung ball nasa side. Kumbaga yung thumb ang magco-control ng ball. I will never be contented with that since may (slight lang naman) arthritis ako sa thumb ko (ah, there ya go. Matanda na nga ako). Wala akong nakikitang nasa middle yung ball. Kung meron man, hindi ko yata mapagkakatiwalaan pa yung brand. Meron akong nakitang Grace ang brand. At maniwala man kayo o hindi, nakakita ako ng brand Will'n Grace electronics. Ito yata ang trackball ng mga bading. Pero mahirap nang gamitin yun. Baka matabi lang sa isa pang pointing device bigla na lang sumemplang.

Will'n Grace trackball: "Nababakla ako sa kagwapuhan ng Logitech trackball sa kabilang mesa! At tignan mo yung isang A4 mouse sa laptop! Ang cutie niya!"

[buzz!] [buzz!] [crackle!] [bling!] [blop!]

At nasira na ang baklang trackball.

Pero INAKOPOWAWIE! Pagkalipas ng ilang minutong pagmumuni-muni ko sa festival mall, nakakita ako ng trackball sa TCA. It's exactly the same trackball unit as what I already have. Pero kulay blue na yung ball instead na red. Sosyal. Atenista na siya, hindi na... uhm.... Bene. Asenso! Wekekekekeke.

Lait, lait, lait.

Saan kaya na-klepto ng TCA ang mga trackball na ito. Eh, mukhang panahon pa ni Mahoma yung mga units, eh. Heto ang System Requirements:

- Windows 95/98 (Ngyiii! Hindi man lang umabot sa Windows ME)
- Hard Disk drive (D-d-d-duh!)
- 3.5" Floppy drive (Limang taon na lang, baka wala na sa circulation ang floppy)
- MD-6 pin PS/2 port or 9 pin serial port (at least, umabot pa siya sa panahon ng PS/2)
- IBM PC 486/586/Pentium compatible (May nakakatanda pa ba sa 486 processor? Ehehe ehehe)

Well, at least I have a new trackball. No complaints. :)


I also bought a DVD copy of Crying Ladies. No, it's not for me. It's for my Mom. Hindi pa niya napapanood, eh. Well, okay, it's for me too. Coz I like this movie. It's funny. At isa din akong Sharonian! Tuwang-tuwa nga ako nung nagshooting ng Madrasta sa kapit-bahay namin nung college pa ako. ;) Nakita ko pa si Rico Yan. At si Claudine... mukhang hindi pa nagpapa-abort ng baby.

AY sorry! Nasobrahan nanaman ako sa TABLOID!

Balik tayo sa Philippine Star... Entertainment section.


I already told my Mom that I bought the DVD movie. She might watch it tonight. Siyempre I have to be with her. I'm the only one in this house who knows how to operate the DVD player!

... and the digital fax machine

... and the Beemer

... and the antique compo

... (dot, dot, dot)

lunes, enero 24, 2005


Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit naiiyak ako kapag naririnig ko ang kantang ito. Siguro dahil sa pagareglo ng kanta. Siguro dahil sa lirika. Pero pucha kung babae ako at haranahan ng kantang ito, pwede na ako pumunta sa langit.

Ngunit, subalit, dadapwat...!!!

Hindi ako girl kaya sorry na lang ang lola mo.


Ryan Cayabyab

Kulang ang araw at gabi 'pag kita'y kapiling.
Kahit ang bukas ay di rin sapat upang mamasdan lamang kita.
Labis kitang minamahal, pag-ibig ko'y walang kapantay.
Kung kaya ko lang abutin ang mga bituin t'yak ito'y gagawin.

Malaman mo lang wala nang ibang mas hihigit pa sa pag-ibig ko sa 'yo.
Walang ibang nagmamahal ng tulad ko sana'y paniwalaan mo.
Iniibig kita.

Kulang ang araw at gabi 'pag kita'y kapiling.
Kahit ang bukas ay di rin sapat upang mamasdan lamang kita.
Labis kitang minamahal, pag-ibig ko'y walang kapantay.
Kung kaya ko lang abutin ang mga bituin t'yak ito'y gagawin.

Malaman mo lang wala nang ibang mas hihigit pa sa pag-ibig ko sa 'yo.
Walang ibang nagmamahal ng tulad ko sana'y paniwalaan mo.
Iniibig kita. Iniibig kita. Iniibig kita.
Iniibig kita. Iniibig kita.

Pinapatawa ninyo ako

domingo, enero 23, 2005

I wasted away my day. The only thing that I did was go to ATC and buy the San Miguel Philharmonic Orchestra CD. That was it. I could have had my band bracelet repaired. But I didn't. I could have dropped off KD's CDs. But I didn't. I could have bought new shirts. But I didn't. I could have ordered a Yellow Cab pizza. But I didn't.

I'm so lazy!

I wonder how my friends are doing. I haven't seen any of them since the start of the year. J is the only one who has seen how skinny my arms have become.


Robin is having a good hair day today. Well, I bathed him with Vaseline shampoo (experiment lang) and after 30 minutes of blow drying, his hair fluffed up like an afro ball. And it smelled real nice. Sarap tuloy yakapin. I brought him to my room and hugged him the rest of the morning. Malambing din naman si Robin kapag hindi masungit eh. He used to be an indoor dog before he pooped up my mom's persian rug. So he had to stay outside. And then he started harassing Dexter. Then he had to be caged.

I love my dogs but I wish I just had only one dog. It's hell taking care of a large dog like Dexter. It's also time consuming to groom a hairy dog like Robin. And Max... Max is just crazy. He's the reincarnation of the Energizer bunny. He's a puppy on ecstasy. If I had to choose only one dog to remain, it would be Robin. Dexter's malambing but he's just too big. Ang hirap dahil sa vet if I have to.

I just have to keep up with them like a parent should, I guess.

Great Original Pilipino Music by Ryan Cayabyab

After seeing them perform last night on Myx Live, hearing the 40-voices with Orchestra version of Ryan Cayabyab classics, I just had to get their album.

This is so far the best CD my car audio unit has ever played.

Album name: Great Original Pilipino Music by Ryan Cayabyab
Performers: The San Miguel Master Chorale and The San Miguel Philharmonic Orchestra

Saturday Night Live

I didn't go out last night. Mabuti pa nanay at tatay ko, may party kagabi. I had dinner by myself. And just stayed in my room after that. Armed with a tall mug of ice cream (vanilla and chocolate with hard choco syrup and corn flakes... Mmmm!) in one hand, I watched TV the whole night. My Mom and Dad got home around 10pm. My Mom checked if I was in my room and was surprised to actually see me home on a saturday night.

"Milagro. Hindi ka lumabas."

"Ba't pa ako lalabas, hindi naman ako pwede uminom." (Next week pwede na).


But really, I got reasons for staying home last night:

1. I'm tamad.
2. My friends were "busy" last night.
3. I'd like to avoid using my car na muna until my subs and my amps are properly installed. My main amplifier just sits on my bare trunk -- half carpeted, totally messed up -- unsecured and it "jumps" around whenever I drive Amanda.

Reason valid enough? Sure it is!


I was channel surfing when I came upon this show "Myx Live." Hosted by Rico Blanco, they were featuring the music of Ryan Cayabyab performed by the San Miguel Philharmonic Orchestra and The San Miguel Master Chorale. I was enjoying the music when suddenly the camera zoomed in on a section of the orchestra that I (used to) know so well. The Strings section. And when the camera started showing the Cello players, I started laughing.

Ah.... the memories of being the worst Cello player of the DLSZ Symphony Orchestra. Bravo!

Christina and I used to play for the DLSZ Symphony Orchestra back in high school. I played the cello and Chris played the violin. We were the best of the worst. Basta ako, madalas ako titigan ng conductor dahil wala ako sa tono. Once pa nga binato ako ng baton, hindi lang tumama sa akin kaya akala ko hindi para sa akin. Dapat yata nasipa na ako sa orchestra but since my Mom was a good "patron," pinagtyagaan na lang ako nung master. Our only purpose for joining the orchestra was to get exempted from Citizen's Army Training or CAT (and Art, PE, Music and Health Education). We were there not for the love of music but for the love of immunity. But when we became Seniors, the exemptions were scrapped. Punyetang admi na yan. We just left the group and attended the special classes after the mid-term break (during my time, we had mid term breaks in high school. Kekekekekeke...). It was part of my strategy, actually. PE and Health classes were during the first and second quarters. I hated PE. Can you actually imagine me playing basketball?? Alright... Try not to answer that, please. I had to sacrifice and attend our orchestra sessions until the first semester is over. I attended Art and Music classes which were close to my specialty. No biggie. THEN I had better days on my last year of DLSZ. No more saturday practices.

In college, you can actually get exempted from ROTC, or at least do just ROTC office duties for an hour a week, if you're a part of the DLSU orchestra. But I was sane enough to know that I will NEVER get in that club. In high school, I only had to do my totoy smile and pretend to be playing. I don't think you can do the same with the college counterpart, especially if the school is spending thousands of pesos on maintenance of the club.

Sabi nga ni Christina: "Sa high school orchestra natin, kailangan lang natin ay ACTING. Sa college Orchestra na yan, kailangan nila TALENT!"

Very convincing.

viernes, enero 21, 2005

Christian groups attack SpongeBob video

Christians have the craziest minds.


miércoles, enero 19, 2005

Holy kamote! ITO ang totoong LIMO!

Audio Hunt

I'm happy. With the help of my cousin Jay-R, (landi mode: I wish he's gay, and not a relative... sarap niya sigurong kainin!! Chomp, chomp, chomp, chomp.... Slllllllurrrrrp.... YUM!), I'm putting a new audio set-up on Amanda and just finished half of it today: shopping for nice separates with tweeters, ovals and a pair of 10" subs -- all carrying the Boston Acoustics name -- and installing the basic speakers and 4-channel Alpine V12 amp. My 2-channel amp will be installed together with the 2 subs.

New happy place: Autosport Shop, 3rd floor, Megamall. Ang saya-saya dito! Ang daming TOYS!!!

My subs will be mounted sometime next week on thick plexiglass material and my trunk flooring will be redesigned also with plexiglass. So far, I'm happy with the sound quality now of my audio. Ibang-iba talaga ang tunog ng Boston Acoustics! Ang linaw ng tunog! Well, with the boost from my Alpine amps, clarity was achieved. Subs na lang... Subs na lang talaga! I can't wait!!

If you're not familiar with the Boston Acoustics brand, try watching an episode of MTV's Pimp My Ride. I'll go into details later on na lang after Amanda's operation is complete. Baka hindi pa matuloy. Hehe.

Ugh. Dami ko pang work. Excited na akong matapos koche ko! My set-up is going to concentrate more on clarity, rather than base. I'm getting too old for hip-hop and boom beats but Erikah Badu will always remain in my heart.

Jay-R bought my 2 x 12" subs and 2 x 5-channel subs last monday and had them installed in his car. Ganda ng lumabas! Couldn't believe I used to own that box! But being a certified audiophile, he's still not happy with the booms. Gusto pa yata tumatalon kotche niya.

Haaaaay. Ang saya!

domingo, enero 16, 2005

The Year That Was

Due to lack of creativity, I am again taking another test I got from Eliza's blog.

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Buy a car.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't do NYR's.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

4. Did anyone close to you die?
We're not close eh. I just know her. My neighbor, Tipsy, Wenk's dog.

5. What countries did you visit?
This year, none.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Nice ass. HEIGHT.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Holy week in Puerto Galera. The week when my PSYCHO ex and I became a so-called couple. Baaaaaaaaaaad week.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting my own car. Hihihihihi.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not pushing through an online business with a friend.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Typhoid fever.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
An ipaq. A car. and a computer for my Mom.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Dexter for not being confined at the animal hospital this year.

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
Psycho ex

14. Where did most of your money go?
My car. The bank. Beer (ahaha ahaha).

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My own car.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Dark Beat. It's not from 2004 but I heard it a lot of times this year.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? Happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner.
iii. richer or poorer? Poorer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Road trips. Vacations.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Driving home drunk.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in 2005, as usual, mass at 6, dinner at 7:30 or 8pm, opening of gifts at 9pm. Bed time by 10pm. My parents are too old for all the celebration and I'm too uninterested with all the fuzz.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favourite TV program?
The Simpsons. Queer Eye FTSG.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

26. What was the best book you read?
Books about ghosts. Hehehe.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

28. What did you want and got?
a pug.

29. What did you want and not get?
An old audiophiled Benz/BMW at the car exchange.

30. Favorite film of this year?
House of the Flying Daggers.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I slept. Turned 28. Slept again. Then went back to being 20.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I had more money to buy that old-yet-HOT audiophiled BMW.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Shirt. Jeans. Rubber shoes. Basurero look. To-hell-with-the-world look.

34. What kept you sane?
I'm not.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jay Hernandez. I fantasize about him A LOT. *sigh*

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
FPJ, Ping Lacson, Erap and Eddie Gil.

37. Who did you miss?
Chris. Len.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
my blog friends

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Kahit ilang beses man niya iwan tayo, babalik at babalik pa rin... ang Twister Fries.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Loving the times, that made us such good friends. Those times would last forever..." An old coca-cola song.

Kidnapped Alabang couple rescued

Yehey! They're free na!

sábado, enero 15, 2005


Minsan nakikita ko pati yung mga pets sinasali sa friendster. Some people think it's pathetic. But I think it's cute. Kung may time ka namang gumawa ng account para sa doggie or pussy- CAT mo, why not, di ba? But there's actually an online social networking for dogs. It's called dogster. And I just completed my dogs' accounts.

viernes, enero 14, 2005

Just going with the flow

You Are 16 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

jueves, enero 13, 2005

Old Doggie

Kapapasok lang ng nanay ko sa kwarto at nakita niya yung desktop picture ko. Si Dexter. Sabi ng nanay ko

"Aba, si Dexter yan ah! Ang tanda na ni Dexter!"

For a moment there, natahimik ako dahil biglang nag flashback sa utak ko nung puppy pa si Dexter. Dati nabubuhat ko pa yan. Kinakalong ko pa yan na parang baby. Ngayon, ako na ang dinadaganan. Tapos biglang naisip ko kung paano kung mamatay na si Dexter. Anong manyayari. Anong gagawin ko.

Kase naman si Mommy sinabi pang matanda na si Dexter, eh. Na-Senti tuloy ako.

Hu hu hu hu....


Cute ni Dexter, 'no?

World Peace

I'm feeling un-blah today. My Mom took me to the mall this afternoon, and SHE went shopping. And NO, she didn't buy me anything. I just felt better coz, for once, I didn't have to drive myself to ATC. I bought a pair of Cava Ricci jeans at Rustan's (Did I type the brand name right?). I don't know if it's a good brand (i.e. ikahihiya mo ba ang brand na ito sa sambayanang AAV? Isusuot mo ba ito sa araw o sa gabi? Isusuot mo ba ito sa labas ng bahay o habang nagpapaligo na lang ng aso?). Pero it's comfortable naman. My ass looked abominable in it tho. Pero alam mo, right now, I'm in a phase where I don't care how horrible I dress up. Dala kaya ito ng depression? Haaaaaay.... I need a vacation.

And speaking of vacation, I THINK my family is planning of having a Boracay trip some time in February. Hindi pa yan sure ha. Now, don't get too excited. The idea of spending time at the beach with just my parents isn't something I should get jumpy about. I've never been to Boracay (snicker, snicker. I'm a loser). But I think it's a trip where I'd rather be with friends. Takot sa araw ang nanay ko, at ang tatay ko naman ay malamang maghahanap ng bikining itim sa kutis ng puti. Eh di ako na lang din ang matitirang mag-isa sa beach? And I don't think I can fool around with the rest of the mermaids. With my Mom and Dad staying in the same island, I would have to behave. Patay ako kay Colonel at kay Doktora.

And if THIS trip is gonna push through, kailangan ko na talagang bumalik sa gym! Baka magmukha akong topless na Janice de Belen sa beel-beel ko. Sayang din ang mga shokoy kung sakaling kamukha nila si Jericho Rosales, ha. O kaya kung kamukha nila yung isang machong poging fighting master sa "Kung Fu Hustle". Hindi yung bida (pero mukhang yummy din yung bida kung maligo lang siya ng sampung beses). Yung taga buhat ng sako pero nadedok din sa end. Basta, pogi yun.

Ah, Kung Fu Hustle. Pinanood ko yun kahapon. Nakakatawa. Ok siya. Isang katerbang CGI ala The Matrix nga lang pero funny na rin. Bad trip nga lang yung dalawang babaeng katabi ko. Ang ingay! Hindi ko lang sigurado kung pokpok sila o nag-aaral sa girls' school. Or maybe both. Magsuot ba naman ng paldang hangang pekpek lang ang haba? At hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit pa sa akin tumabi, ang luwang-luwang naman sa loob ng sinehan. Hello?? Hindi ko kailangan ng pekpek, no? Poknat, etits ang gusto ko.

I did a good deed too yesterday. I "donated" my old laptop to our main office. Actually, it was for my own benefit. My Jewelries on Display inventory software is installed in that laptop. And since it is now with them, they would have to do the inventory every month instead of me. Buwah huwah huwah huwah!!

Chaka story of the night: Last night's kidnapping at Starbucks Madrigal. Scaaaary!!! Pati ba naman dito sa Alabang, dinadalasan na ng mga chakang kidnappers na yan!! I hope no decent person got/will get hurt. And I hope the jologs kidnappers will die. DIE!!!! DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE!!!!!!!!!!! So Alabangers can continue living in piss. Este, peace. And can still safely go to McDo at night for a chunk of Twister Fries. Amen.

lunes, enero 10, 2005

I'm feeling "BLAH" right now. It's a strange feeling. Feeling sad without knowing the exact reason why. Maybe because I'm still feeling weak. Maybe because I won't see Bruno ever again. Maybe because I can't drink liquor for a month. Maybe because I need to redo my whole bed room (and getting rid of the old stuff is quite a headache). Or maybe because of work (I HAVE to put up a business that requires decent clients!).

Or maybe it's just one of those days (or weeks).

I checked the auction inventory this morning. And after lunch, I fell asleep on my desk while doing some paper work. Bagsak ko tuloy sa kama. Natatakot ako na baka hindi pa nga ako masyado magaling kaya nanghihina pa ako. My Mom got me some vitamins. And as requested, pati iron supplement binilhan din niya ako. I have this suspicion that I'm anemic. Kaya lahat ng multivitamins na may iron sinilip ko sa Mercury Drug. I even bought myself Sustagen Premium. But it just gave me the shits. Kaya after 2 days, I stopped drinking it.

Waaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! I'm too skinny!!!!! Kung pwede lang sana yung taba ko sa beel-beel ma-distribute sa buong katawan ko.
Ngayon ko lang napansin. Wala na pala si Bruno. Nabenta na! Mami-miss ko siya. Pero.... heto ang pinalit ng nanay ko. Hihihihihihi...

Kung marunong lang sana mag drive nanay ko.

domingo, enero 09, 2005

Pucha. Ano ba itong nanayayari sa akin. Para akong dinaganan ng balyena. Nabinat na nga yata ako (Pero sana nga din hindi). Mangyari nag gym ako kahapon, sabado. Pero hindi naman ako masyado nagtagal. Mga 45 minutes lang. Konting takbo. At konting buhat. Pagdating ng hapon, hayun, parang nilakad ko ang buong planeta sa sobrang pagod. Hindi ko nga maintindihan, eh. Hindi naman ako puyat. At hindi naman ako masyado nagpagod sa gym. Pero sa sobrang lata ko kahapon, maghapon akong nakatulog. Halos 5:30pm na ako nang magising.

First time ko ulit mag dine-out kagabi pagkatapos kong ma-ospital. Sa Gloria Maris kami, as usual. Favorite ng tatay ko doon. Hindi ko alam kung paborito niya ang pagkain, o yung mga mahahabang hiwa sa palda ng mga waitres doon. Siyempre, ingat na ingat ako kagabi. Gusto ko Softdrink in Can at ako ang magbubukas. Tapos kapag suspetsa kong hilaw yung pagkain, hindi ko kakainin. At yung dumplings gusto ko mainit pa at bagong luto. Sa umpisa lang itong pagkapraning ko. Ilang araw pa, wala na ito. Pero matagal-tagal pa siguro bago ako makabalik sa Terriyaki Boy.

Ngayong araw naman, para nanaman akong nanlalata. Pagkauwi naman namin kagabi, hindi na ako nagpuyat masyado. Nakipag kwentuhan lang naman ako kay Eman tapos derecho na akong natulog nang walang istorbo, pwera na lang sa 2AM toilet wee-wee trip. Kaya habang namamasyal kami ni J sa Robinson's Place kanina, mas mabilis pa siya kaysa sa akin, kahit na siya yung may pilay sa paa.

Kailangan maaga ulit tulog ko mamaya. At kailangan malakas na ako bukas. Hindi na muna siguro ako magwo-work out bukas. Sabi nga ni Eman dapat nagpahinga muna ako nang kahit isa pang linggo. Kaya yun na nga siguro ang gagawin ko.

jueves, enero 06, 2005

This is so not me.


85 pesos na ang McChicken meal?? Nawala lang ako ng dalawang linggo, nadagdagan na siya ng 4 pesos?? Plus 20 pesos for the Twister Fries. 105 pesos na ang McChicken/Fillet-o-Fish meal with Twister Fries??

Ang lupeeeet!!!!
Reading a thread of my batch's yahoogroup makes me wonder why up to now, when we're all already approaching 30, the jerks still make fun some of our batchmates who they see as dorks and losers. Batchmates still see you as what you have been in high school. What's funny about the situation is that these so-called cool guys now lead miserable lives, aside from the fact that they're now fat, slow and look 40. They still think they're cool. They have become like their fat dads.

The only batch asshole in high school who still looks good must be Anthony B. He runs a diving resort now in Puerto Gallera. I've seen his pictures online and Mmmmmm...!! Yummy pa rin. Ilan na kaya ang panganay niya ngayon?

miércoles, enero 05, 2005

I only have one tablet of antibiotics left reserved for tonight. This means my treatment is almost over and well (and legal) enough to drive myself to the mall. I can't go back to work yet, tho. My Mom insists that I resume work on Monday na lang. And you won't hear me complaining. Kekekekeke. I'm not as bloated as when I got back home from the hospital, thanks to the fiber supplement. But I still look disgusting.

Together with the Metro Mag, I bought a book called Sleepless in Manila. It's a book written by insomniacs, for insomniacs. I can relate to it. It's a good read, actually. My problem is after reading an essay, aantukin ako... at 2 in the afternoon! Ironic, isn't it?

At may Philippine Ghost Stories volume 6 na!

And speaking of ghosts, I just discovered something odd about a picture I took of my nephew months ago. If you wanna see what it is, just email me.

martes, enero 04, 2005


This is so unfair.

First, Erap gets to go to Hong Kong. While I'm stuck here in... ALABANG with Typhoid fever. And THEN he gets a knee surgery that gained him 2 inches to his height. While I'm still.... ADORABLE.

He's 2 inches taller! HE doesn't need that! I do!!! It is so.... UNFAIR! Ang daya!!!!


I'm feeling stronger now. I think I'm well enough to go to the mall. Well, actually, I did go to the mall yesterday just to buy myself a copy of Metro Magazine (just to see the half naked picture of our buddy Pineapple Cup Cake... hihihihihihi). The photographer who took his pic should be shot, that's all I can say.

I'm having a headache right now. It must be the medicines I have been taking. Either that or I have been spending too much time with my bed that I need to go out and get some sunshine.

My appointment tomorrow with the Doc will be at 2 in the afternoon. I'm pretty sure that he will have good words for me, that I'm getting well, not to ruin my day.

lunes, enero 03, 2005


6 CBC's, 7 Paracetamols, 12 meals and 25 trips to the toilet later, I gained 5 pounds and all of it went to my mid area. Whenever I see myself naked infront of the bathroom mirror, it's like I'm looking at a pregnant walking stick. Well, I guess, this will be my motivation not to forget to visit the gym at least 3 times a week.


Meanwhile, I was thinking about an ultimate goal this year. I fell asleep thinking about it last night. I can't ellaborate it. Sabi nga, baka hindi pa matuloy. But it has something to do with my name. I just want everything to be finally legal. People who know about my background probably already know what I'm talking about.

I know it's kinda late to do this kind of action. This should have been done when I was still a kid. When I was a baby. I could have been spared from the ridicule, and the discomfort when classmates ask why I have a different family name as my parents. My parents thought the situation was alright. They always assumed that I was doing fine. But they were not there so they have no idea what was going on with me. And they're not adopted so they don't know how it is to be like me.

I'm just glad I ended up friends with the good ones of my batch.


I'm feeling better today. I woke up with a 37.1 C mild fever which was bearable. I didn't have to pop a paracetamol. And I get to take a bath! Hey, if you've been bed ridden for more than 5 days, you'll know the joy of finally getting a bath.


Christina went back to Mexico this morning. I feel bad that I wasn't well enough to take her even for just a coffee one last time. I owe her one. She'll probably make me kulit about visiting her in Mexico when she sees me online. She has no idea how I hate travelling to countries outside Asia. I dunno why, I just hate it. I love Asia. And I hate Americans and the French (everybody hates the French, anyway -- unless you're someone who loves kissing their asses) as well.


The tsunami tragedy that happened recently hit quite a number of Australian tourists. Wasn't it Australia who banned the Philippines as a tourist destination because of the supposed "terrorist activities" that were going on south of the country?? So they preferred going to Muslim countries who have more publicized terrorist activities (remember the Bali bombings? Hello??) going on?? I remember a Tita uttering "tamaan sana ng lintik (to the Australians)" when the ban came out. And they did. But seriously now, we should be thankful that our country was spared from this calamity. We still haven't recovered from the typhoon that hit Quezon.

Last Saturday, New Year's day, I was forced to attend mass even if I was ill. Anyway, I was seated most of the time. So it's alright. At may aircon na sa St. James. At the middle of the mass, there was a second 'collection.' The priest announced that it was for the victims of the tsunami that hit Asia. And I was like... HELLO??? Sarili nga natin hindi natin matulungan nung tinamaan tayo nung bagyo. Tayo pa ang tutulong sa iba. Kayabangan na yata yan. Don't get me wrong. It is good to help other countries in need when in a crisis. But we are in a crisis ourselves! Marami pang gutom at nangangailangan ng tulong sa Quezon hanggang ngayon. Ba't hindi na lang yun ang tulungan muna? Nakakatawa.